A letter to the man who killed the psychiatrist who treated me before ever speaking with me

November 4, 2016

Dear Christopher,

On August 14th 2002, I was civilly committed to the MeadowWood mental hospital by a psychiatrist who worked at Christiana Hospital.  The doctor who committed me failed to ask me one single question about the incident leading to my involuntary psychiatric treatment.  After being admitted to MeadowWood and prior to meeting or speaking with the psychiatrist who was responsible for my care, Dr. Caroline Ekong, I was informed that she had directed the staff to treat me with Risperdal, an oral antipsychotic.  I respectfully refused to swallow the Risperdal, and asked if I could at least speak with Dr. Ekong prior to commencing taking any psychopharmacological  drugs.

Dr. Ekong refused my request to speak or meet with her prior to commencing treatment. Staff at the mental hospital told me that I would have the chance to meet and speak with Dr. Ekong the following day, but that I still had to begin taking the Risperdal immediately.  I was told that if I refused to swallow the Risperdal that I would be given an injection of Haldol, another antipsychotic.

I told the staff I thought it was wrong for me to be treated against my will by a doctor who hadn’t even spoken with me yet, and I told them that I would not willingly take the Risperdal.  I also told them that I wouldn’t physically resist being injected with the Haldol if they were compelled to treat me without my consent.  They were so compelled, and I did not resist.

Subsequently I began swallowing the Risperdal to avoid receiving any additional Haldol injections.  Ten days later, the same day that my involuntary commitment would have been reviewed by a judge, Dr. Ekong released me from the hospital.

In May of this year, while working on a memoir manuscript about my mental health care journey, I Googled “Caroline Ekong” and first learned about your story.

A couple days after learning some details of your mental health care journey I posted this on Instagram.

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Christopher Frick stabbed Dr. Caroline Ekong to death in October of last year at her home in Hockessin, Delaware, three years after she civilly committed him to a private psychiatric hospital.  I just learned of this event this week.

Dr. Ekong was the same caregiver who ordered me to be injected with Haldol before ever meeting or speaking with me after I trespassed at CIA headquarters five weeks before the first anniversary of the 9/11 attacks back in 2002.

Imagine if judges in our legal system could imprison suspects and order them to be injected with potentially life-threatening substances without meeting or speaking with them.  Imagine if imprisoned criminal suspects and criminals were financially responsible for paying fees for being in prison, including one to the judge who jailed them.  These ideas are just as absurd as a reality in the mental health care system as they would be if they were part of our legal system.

I do not blame any individual for my harrowing experience with Haldol, even if their actions were illegal.  On the contrary, I am exceedingly appreciative of anyone who dedicates themselves to caring for the well-being of others.  They are my brothers and sisters on the front line in the battle to bring about the beginning of the end of suicide.

I don’t seek attention for my anecdotal experience with mental health care mistreatment for the purpose of retributive justice or sympathy, and unlike some survivors of less than optimal behavioral health care, I do not want to burn the existing system to the ground.  Rather, my motivation for sharing this story publicly is to increase awareness about human rights violations occurring within our mental health care system in order to inspire social change and systemic reform.

Caroline Ekong and Christopher Frick are victims of the same thing: a broken, but fixable behavioral healthcare system.

I’m sorry that you’re in the position that you’re in, and I’m sorry that I wasn’t compelled to share publicly about my experience with Dr. Ekong prior to last October.  I can’t help but imagine how telling my story could have been the cause of you thinking and acting differently than you did.  But that is not how our stories played out unfortunately.

Fortunately we are both still in a position to try to improve the mental health care system that treated us without our consent.  I would appreciate the opportunity to learn more about your mental health care journey if you’re open to communicating with me.

Warmest regards,

Francesco Bellafante

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